Forgive me if I’ve written about this before… my memory doesn’t always work so well about some things.
Have you ever heard/read/sung something for the hundredth time, and suddenly you’re overcome with a new insight? I think that especially happens when you are dealing with things about spirituality… because our meager little minds can’t really take it all in at once.
I was at church last night, and we sang an amazing arrangement of the hymn Solid Rock. As many of you who grew up in church understand, we sometimes sing those hymns without really thinking about the words or meanings. I don’t know if it was the new arrangement that caught my attention… or just a new understanding that has come with this road I’m walking… or who knows. But it felt like I was hit with that proverbial ton of bricks when this part of the song came…
“When darkness seems to hide his face… I rest on his unchanging grace.”
I thought about how God’s face has seemed hidden to me so often over the last 2 years. I have found that I either feel His presence so strongly that I can’t miss it… or I hardly feel Him at all- not much middle ground there (I have more of the “feel His presence” days now). But even when the darkness of this world and its tragedies and calamities make it hard for me to “see” God, I can rest on the fact that God does not change. His promises are the same as they were yesterday, as they are today, and as they will be tomorrow.
The word seem really speaks to me too… it may seem as if God is distant (or not there entirely) at certain times in our lives, but that is not true. It’s at those times we have to choose whether to keep believing and holding on… and to rest in who we know God is- even when we don’t feel it in our hearts.
“His oath, His covenant, His blood
Support me in the whelming flood;
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my hope and stay.”
The floods of life can definitely seem overwhelming… unsurvivable… insurmountable- and our souls can feel shattered… and there He is- our hope.
I love this part this best…
“When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh, may I then in Him be found;
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.”